Watching (USA VPN) on YouTube.


https://youtu.be/Kt-upIZm5dw?si=kPKtXj4ulRdCjNuv

Some people in Tokoroa are so grumpy. 2 bicycle rides around the lake so far, and some people giving me dirty looks, but all the children are nice. Some young teenage girls cheering me on as I go around the lake this time.

Learning Silambam and Kalari, with Kukishinden. All using different muscles and moves with the Staff, while also studying some new sword (old Knight) techniques. About 4-5 hours today exercising, stretching, and using the staff.

The difficult thing when learning a new physical activity is the alarming shock that you are not as stretched as you think you are, and you now have to to do totally new stretches that you have not done before.

The Bromans house has sold. I think it was up for about over $400,000, something like that. Marlee told me but I forgot the exact amount. So, we will have new neighbours in the street soon.

What i have been told, and what seems to be the case, at least for me, is that when you have sore knee’s or elbows or such, the best thing for you is to build muscle in that area, but also stretch the muscle in that area as well. What this does is makes the muscle bulge/grow and the muscle will take most of the strain instead of your joints, thus getting up is less painful and more enjoyable, and helps to keep you mobile.

Keep the voices in your head positive, but also realistic. If they are not realistic then you will brainwash your own self into believing unachievable goals, or other peoples grooming of your mind to become what they want you to be, not what you were born to be.

Just heard some banging, like gun shots, from Tainui Street way.

One of the cats that has appeared at my place, about 2-3 months ago and seems to live mostly hee now is a cat that is multicoloured and has a rear foot missing. It may have originated from the two-story house, Johns place.

It screams at me demanding food when I walk outside a if it lives here, and won’t let me pat it.

The treason why I was limping recently was that about a couple of weeks ago I was in the computer room, and a craft knife had fallen on the floor, and I turned with no shoes or socks on, and the blade went clear into my left foot tip first.
Hurt like crazy.
I had not gone to the toilet yet, so i went and on the floor was a big puddle of blood. It was a Sunday and I was supposed to work but I ended up telling Colin that I could not work and I had sick leave.
Took about a week or so to stop bleeding and heal.

Watching, First Blood, 1982.
Seems to be basically about a cop with a big ego and a guy who was just minding his own business, and the cop decided to bully him.

Rambo is clearly Character Assassinated, and each person who is added to the hunt, is foolish enough to believe whatever they are told about him being bad, and so they join the hunt to kill him.

The reason why the police were not able to get him was a lack of survival skills and ability. The Police are not armed forces, and many of the people hunting Rambo are just pretty boys who work out in the gym, getting tattoos, and chatting up women and getting small time thieves.

You don’t learn how to survive in the gym getting muscles. You don’t learn how to eat on the run, eat from the land, survive in the cold night, and fight to survive.

Don’t Fear Failure.
Fear Being in the Exact
Same Place Next Year
As You Are Today:

People who are living with evil people are kept mentally weak so that they can be afraid all the time thus they will not take risks, not do what they need to do to escape, and because the weak person depends so heavily on the narcissist manipulators the weak person would never consider taking them on and defeating them, and that is why they are kept weak.

People with a fear of failure may be:

Afraid of performing simple tasks at work, home or school.
Angry or irritable.
Anxious about being judged by others.
Depressed or sad.
Pessimistic (negative outlook on life).
Prone to procrastination if a task or activity seems challenging.
Unable to maintain relationships.
Unwilling to accept constructive criticism or help.

Atychiphobia can also cause panic attacks, which may lead to:

 

Chills.
Dizziness and lightheadedness.
Excessive sweating (hyperhidrosis).
Heart palpitations.
Nausea.
Shortness of breath (dyspnea).
Trembling or shaking.
Upset stomach or indigestion (dyspepsia).


Atychiphobia is an extreme fear of failure.

Someone with this condition may procrastinate or avoid any situations where they don’t feel they’ll be completely successful. They may set unrealistic goals for themselves, which only increases the possibility of failure..

Atychiphobia is an intense fear of failure.
It may cause you to put off or avoid any activity or scenario that has the potential for an unsuccessful outcome. Someone with this condition may be scared to try new things, take risks or embrace growth for fear of failure.

What is atychiphobia?

Atychiphobia is an intense fear of failure. It comes from the Greek word “atyches,” meaning “unfortunate.”

People with atychiphobia may avoid any situation where they see a potential for failure, such as an exam or job interview. It can also mean being afraid of a failed relationship, a failed career or being a disappointment to others.

The fear often becomes self-fulfilling. For example, if you’re so scared of failing a test that you refuse to take the test, you may end up failing an entire class.

Fear of failure can lead to a broad range of emotional and psychological problems, including shame, depression, anxiety, panic attacks or low self-esteem. It may negatively affect how you perform at school or work, or how you interact with friends and family members.

Atychiphobia is different from atelophobia, which is a fear of imperfection.

Are atychiphobia and perfectionism the same?

Atychiphobia and perfectionism have some similarities, but they’re different conditions. Perfectionism means you try to be flawless and have an intense focus on success. Someone with atychiphobia focuses on failure and battles feelings of panic, worry or doom about what could happen if failure happens. Extreme perfectionism can escalate into atelophobia.

What is a phobia?

 


A phobia is a type of anxiety disorder. It causes an overwhelming sense of fear about an object, situation or event. The fear might seem irrational to others, but the person with the phobia feels genuinely scared, threatened and at risk.

How common is atychiphobia?

 


It’s hard knowing exactly how many people have a specific phobia, like atychiphobia. Many people may keep this fear to themselves or may not recognize they have it.

– Cleveland Clinic.

 

When we look back at our past and see sorrow and pain, or how we have treated people, and even look at our life now and see this we have the choice of reacting in a good or bad way to this.


We can look back and say that we don’t want to see other people suffer as we did and then we can use our life to lift people up and help them grow in love and usefulness, we can understand their sufferings, we have the ability to take away their sufferings because we too have been there, we know how it feels and we know how to help.


Or we can decide “stuff the world!” and then hit the parties and believe that we are in some strange way getting back at those who hurt us in the past. All we are really doing is setting ourselves up for a big fall, pain, anguish and illnesses that are the result of the life where we push our bodies with late nights and abusive behaviors. Many feel that lust, drugs and parties will take them away from the world
– but that is simply that their minds will be occupied for a while and then the payment hits and usually hard.


Do realise that you do have the choice of reacting to any bad done to you in a bad manner or in a good manner. But if you choose a negative manner, you will pay the price for it. Turn the other cheek. Apologize to those you have wronged. Improve from this point on and then life will progress upwards for you instead of downwards.


If you choose to help other people then you will reap the rewards of helping them, you will bring them joy and not sorrow, and will be releasing them from their torments and addictions etc.


If you are suffering now then consider how you feel right now. You don’t like this, and tell yourself that when you can in the future, you can help others be released from this very feeling that you have now. Use this motivation to push you forward to success and happiness – leave negative feelings and negative attitudes in the past.


Use your life for good. If evil has torn your life apart, tear evil apart with a loving caring heart and soul. Make your life worthy, make it special, and make it count for something.


All the best from
James M Sandbrook.
February 1, 2013.

If we don’t ask we won’t know.

The narcissist believes that he or she is as he or she was born to be, they are completely unaware that they have a disorder/issues and that the character/soul that they live is not that person at all.


Once a person of apathy and hard heart becomes who they turn out to be it is vey hard to show them that they could be a better person because they are so used to being apathetic and using hard ways to get what they want in life.These types of people rationalize their meanness and cruelty as something needed, and they may even lie to themselves so much so that they believe that their victims need to be treated in this cold narcissistic way because it is good for the victim as well.When a mind is irrational it thinks that what conclusions about life that thy have come to believe, and about people are rational, logical and common sense. Liek they think that being narcissist (which they don’t believe is narcissistic) is good for their victims – people who the narcissist thinks that he or she is caring about.
The narcissist can read about a narcissist and either admire that person or see no connection between themselves and the known narcissist .

Don’t partake in activities that destroy your belief in yourself.

I realised that as long as I have lived I have never really been able to know what is going on in any situation or in any other person’s life.

 

I can assume, guess, listening to what others say, but I realise that in the end I really don’t know.

 

The worst situation is to get half the story from one source of information and never get the other half of the information and remain half-blind from the real truth.It is so easy to judge and condemn someone with what another person has told us, and yet never actually ask the person being talked about what they have to say about the things said about them (such as accusations etc).

 

And what is even more amazing is even with plain clear incoming evidence the people who have only half the truth cling on so desperately to the lies that they have been told, after all, they don’t want to admit that they were fooled and abused.

 

Many times in my life I thought that I knew something as fact, and that I was in a position to judge and even condemn another person, and I did all of this with so little evidence of the person’s guilt, or I only had half the story.

Having fallen to this many times when younger I see now as a Christian that God wants us to get all the facts, to knock, to ask, and then when we do, we will receive the truth and the truth will set us free.

 

All the best from
James M Sandbrook.
31-1 – 2018.

At my mothers house while I was visiting I heard a baby crying, and it went on and on.

 

I asked my mother what was going on and why didn’t the young mother next door attend to her baby. My mother said that it was the new thing for mothers to do deal with a crying baby. The idea was to let the baby cry and cry itself to sleep and then the baby would put itself to sleep.Mother and I used to argue over this sort of thing often, as well as abortion.

I was shocked at what she said about the crying baby. By this time the baby had been crying for about 30 minutes and was sounding sad and hoarse from the continued effort to cry for mother to come to baby’s aid.I was very upset and mother thought that (as usual) I was being over emotional and didn’t understand woman’s issues and parenting etc. I think I was still a teenager at this stage, in my late teens. But I was looking at it from the babies point of view and also the mothers.I was then, and still am, very much against leaving a baby to cry itself to sleep. I cannot even comprehend the coldness in a persons heart to let an innocent baby stress out hysterically and in full panic and ignore the little one while only thinking of themself.


The whole idea of letting the baby cry itself to sleep is to benefit the mother and also to break the bond of trust between baby and mother – all created by feminism and modern doctoring and science.

Loving and caring for our baby, being there for the little one when the little one needs someone is called love – love is all about being there, and sacrificing one’s own time for the one that they love. Love is about empathy and creating a special tender bond between parents and children.

The feminist path has entered the church and society and has been eating away at the bond and love that God created for us all to enjoy. Take away love and you have the likes of apathy, and this is seen in modern society when teenagers and parents argue and don’t connect.


The connection for many of these parents and young was first separated when the parents let the child know what horror, loneliness, fear, depression and anxiety are when they forced the child to cry itself to sleep and the little one was force to face the fact that when he or she needed someone, that no one loved them enough to want to be there.

 

All the best from
James M Sandbrook.
31-1-2018

Years ago I read a story about a man who was used as an experiment. 

 

 

It went like this:There was a really joyful man at this workplace, always optimistic and happy. He was put to the test by two other workers.
In the early morning at work a one of the two enters the room where this other chap was working and the first guy asked the chap how he was feeling and he said that he couldn’t have felt better, that he was having a wonderful morning. As the morning went on the guy or his friend asked the chap how he was feeling (as they passed through the room a few times as part of their work day). Eventually
they would comment that the man that they were experimenting on saying that the chap did look a bit off colour.

This went on a few times until the happy man said that he was feeling, “A bit off, to tell the truth!” and then it got worse and worse until at lunchtime he said that he felt unwell.

This is simply the power of suggestion. People do this to us all through our lives. People keep telling us something and we never get well. I had it done to me as a child by adults wishing to abuse my relationship with them. We can lift people up by suggestion and we can tear them down – it doesn’t mean that we are “simple” but it does mean that we trust other people, and want to know their opinion and to us their opinion or words is helpful to us (we hope). In the case of those who treat us bad we are trusting the wrong people.

 

An adult could use suggestion to trick a young child into doing things that the child shouldn’t do and the child would grow up believing what the adult has taught them as acceptable. I have seen some very tragic cases of this – its very sad.When other people label you, accuse you, are abusive to you (people can still abuse us by being gentle too) it is simply like second-nature that you will start to
mentally or possibly even physically abuse yourself, and say bad things about yourself, put yourself down in your own head.

Why? Because you believe that “they” (the adults of your childhood) cannot all be wrong – the many are wiser than the few right? Wrong!

 

The Bible is full of stories of simple people who were not great people by humankind’s standards, they held no degrees, they were not trained by the society of the day. No they were simple people who God knew were humble and willing to help the lost of their day. God knows your heart, God knows a good person. If you were once lost and felt guilty then know that God loves you for you realizing your past mistakes. God can use people like this, good, humble, meek people.

 

The “many” are often just the masses lost in their own lives – the masses around you may be wrong too. If they are making out that you are simple then they are wrong to do so. Look and study them carefully. Look, listen, think, and learn.

 

The power of suggestion can be very soul destroying. Don’t give those around you the power to do this to you. Especially those who have led you astray in the past – they are not your healer. Go to good people who follow God. Those you have seen to be good, and that other good people trust. God will show you the way.

 

Keep the voices in your head positive. If you try to do something worthy you will hear yourself tell you what others have said. Keep telling yourself that you will only follow God. Keep praying, God will never give you negative nasty feedback. God will always support you, always!You were not made to fail. You were made to be courageous, humble and good. be true to yourself. You, are the only you, that you have. Don’t let yourself down by taking a life less than the wonderful one that you can have with God.

 

All the best from
James M Sandbrook.
January 31, 2013.